the bitch is out

This issue that I’m facing is getting way out of hand. For the first time in my life, I know I’m doing the right thing. And in the end, it backfired. For once, I wanted to bury the hatchet. I wanted closure. All I wanted to do was help. But boy look at what I got. May be, both of us are just not meant for each other. No matter how hard I try to forgive and forget. No matter what I try to do to help, people will always view me as a bitch. A cold-hearted, sadistic, mean bitch. And this is the biggest problem of my life. I’m often misunderstood. People judge me. But do they really know who I am? Underneath the bubbly, cheerful mask that I wear is a person. A human with emotions. With a heart. With problems, sorrows, loneliness and heartache. Just because I happen to know how to carry myself doesn’t mean I don’t breakdown when I’m alone. Once in a while, to have a nice shoulder to cry on would be nice. to be given advice, for a change, could do miracles. But where art thou hiding? I can’t seem to find you. At least not in this world. I give up. I think my job as a people-pleaser, peacemaker, voice of reason ends here. I want out. Since no one seems to want to listen, I might as well S.T.F.U. (shut the fuck up) and watch as the disaster unfolds. For those involved, make sure you have your seatbelts on, cuz its gonna be a bumpy ride. Trust me. I should know. Been there, done that. BUT wait, who am I to advice you. After all, you know what you’re doing right?

merry kristmas

my keyboard is 9ivin9 me problems man! i can't blo9 like tis! but anyway, merry kristmas everyone! feliz navidad! to yout\impact, 9reat service on saturday! truly retro! t\anks for invitin me ya. and to sam,rol and meow, tat was a truly fantastic kristmas party we \ad. tanks to u 9uys, i'm now a brid9e 9enius! =p

hiking!

yet another tiring day. today is a momentous day for the fantastic 4, aka matin, este,su and myself, as we put our holter tops, skirts, jeans and polo shirts for the basic t-shirt,FBTs and shoes as we, yet again, push ourselves over our physical limits. haha. yes, we went hiking today! the day started at about 730 when we meet up in the train and made our way to macritchie. althought the official CAT status was CAT 1, no stormy clouds was gonna stop the fantastic 4 from hiking a total of 10.2 km from macritchie all the way to bukit timah nature reserve. After getting drenched, after much screaming and running away from weird-looking monkeys, we made it through the journey alive! for God is truly great! haha. we went to this really deserted corner of the park where we could actually see the mouth of the reservoir and as usual, we cam-whored there. and here's a word of advice to all those who dream of going through this amazing feat, wear proper shoes! not slippers or shoes with holes in them. believe me, we know! haha. so anyway, the whole walk took about 5 hours? but we were not the least bit tired. i guess, its cuz we were amidst really good company. so after burning like one mllion calories, we decided to reward ourselves to a sumptous meal at al-ameen. hahaha. yup. thats life man. you lose some, you gain some. hahaha. to matin adn este, a bunch of monkeys won't hurt! hahaha... and to su, snickers are NOT meant for hiking! hahaha... love u guys!

tkband in concert. the grand premiere

band master marco in action! congratulations hedgehog on your first concert as band master! i truly enjoyed watching you having fun conducting on stage. you owned the limelight bro! i'm very honoured to have been invited to this grand premiere of yours. you're just fantastic can. somebody so famous until i actually had to wait in line to just talk to you can. haha...seriously, you got that goodlooking meh? haha. jus kidding. anyway, i just wanted to tell you that i'm very proud to see you doing your thing on stage man! love you so very much bro! good old frenz! guyz, hedgehog does look hot in the suit!

yet another day cycling

so i spent yet another saturday cycling. but this time, i cycled my bestest kuz at pasir ris. haha. it was like so fun can. i've never laughed so much. this guys are reli a bunch jabronis! and fat fathiah and khai are seriously hopeless at cycling. hahaha...they look like two miss piggies on wheels! i think that my cousins and i have all grown so much. now that most of us are on almost the same level of maturity, i find it so much easier to talk to them. love u guys so much man. we cousins should so organise a chalet just for ourselves. it'll be like so major fun can. so fat! plan an outing man! to fill up ur time rather then u jus sit ur fat ass at home feeling sorry for urself. hahha. and dirah, your idol britney has so gone down the looney bin man! haha. and im so fat! oh yar. i jus came back from what i consider to be the best outfield i had so far. i totally see tekong in a different light now. delta coy commanders rocks la. such nice and friendly people man. well, other than the uptight OC who need a good fat d*ck up his ass! haha. and to spencer, jason and edwin, i couldnt have survived without u guys man. and lta herwin, sorry bout the multiple breakdowns. haha. wat can i say, SAF vehicles are F*cked up. hahaha. GO DELTA!

blonde day

this weekend has been busy busy busy. went for acs concert on friday night which turned out to be quite alrite. it was a moment for recollection for me. i miss being in a lee band!!!! the music was so nostalgic for me. pieces from my secondary school days and songs i played in switzerland.love it! well done on the solo dom! good job my fellow alma maters! a job well done. the new acs auditorium was so beautiful! loved it! and did i mention that we were late for the concert? as usual...hahaha and yesterday, este, matin and i went cycling at east coast. it was so fun la. i've never had so much fun with those two since our last mac ritchie outing. we are such healthy dudes (yeah rite)...so after that we spend hours cam-whoring around the east area! we were like tourist can. and i love being a tourist. hahha...guys, i officially name that day, a 'blonde' day and u know why. and finally today, haha. the stupidest thing happen. i was suppose to start my first tuition class today. but the dumb thing was, the address of my student was written in my notebook which i accidentally left in camp. hahaha. all i could recall was that it was in petir road. so i went there and waited at the lrt station for like an hour, waiting for a phone call. haha. which didn't come. so i left for the royal canin cat show at the chevrons. it was so fantastic. so many beautiful furries! i was liek so jealous can. hahah. and i met aqilah!!! it was so so so nice to talk to her! congratulations my friend on ur 8th year relationship! my gosh! you guys look so good together la. ok. so i'll be going to tekong for exercise for the next 5 days. i jus hope i don't die of boredom! jus one more year to ORD!!!! to my bunkmates who are leavign next week, it's been reli reli reli nice knowing you guys. thanks for imparting so much knowledge on me and for helping me settle down. thanks for looking out for me and i reli reli appreciate your company. girlgirl will surely miss you guy! hahaha and what is with me? why am so confident yet insecure at the same time/ its so weird. one moment i feel like i can live my life being this confident single guy. but the next moment, i'm longing to have someone by my side. its just so annoying. and i just cant stand the fact that i always have to make the first move all the time. now, i'm just gonna sit back and watch the show. whuahahha