ORD OH! (not!)

today has been the worst day of my life as a driver. with half the mt-line in wallaby and many more on exercise, work is piling up like nobody's business. i've been driving until i can't feel my legs no more. and tts not the worst part. i had to take my UNIMOG fem test today. some people have benn pestering me non-stop man. so anyway, i prepared the vehicle and everything. but guess wat, no warrants were available to test me! and they didnt have the decency to tell me earlier. made me stress the whole day for no apparent reason. and some where along the way, i lost my beloved jockey cap which was given to me by someone. and the icing on the cake was tt i found out at the very last minute tt they wanted me to go back tekong for a week starting saturday! i was so pissed, that i actually gave the 'attitude' to my superiors. i've never done this since secondary school man. but after much argument, they decided to let me off this time. thank goodness. at least now i can start teaching and i wont miss my cat show. but nonetheless,i'm still very pissed with the admin staff of my camp. they are the most unreasonably disorganised pieces of rats droppings alive! and today, a stupid officer pissed me off. he called me 'driver this and driver that' the whole day. i was so infuriated but i tolerated. until it came to a point tt i couldn't take it anymore. so when he gave me an instruction, i simply answered,' yes officer!' and guess what he said! he said,'eh driver...you are very rude.' i was like angry can. wat is so rude about calling him officer. that's his vocation isnt it? just like how driver is my vocation. i never complained when pple called me driver. so why should he? this is going out to all those officers/sergeant/whatsoever superiors out there. no doubt that we drivers are the lowest ranked personnels. but tt doesnt give you the right to treat us like crap! give us some respect. let us have some dignity! we're humans too you know. how would u like it if your son became a driver and another officer calls him 'driver'! how then would u feel?

PGL

ok...matin and i went for our first ever musical at the esplanade yeaterday! putri gunung ledang was simply spectacular. it was like so awesome can. its like the greatest epic love story ever. i teared, as usual. i never thought i would actually like a malay production. but this musical definitely proved me wrong. kudos to tiara jacquelina! the set was like fantastic. visual effects was to die for and the soundtrack is simply haunting. love it love it love it! after which, we watched fida's performance at the edge. i never knew fida could strude like that. even with her open zipper stunt, she still managed to blow the audience away with her graceful movements! she's definitely the next Som Said! hahaha...do your thing girl! this is my third addition to the family. her name is kiki! isnt she liek the most adorable thing ever? haha...i know i know... i should stop getting cats. haha...but cats are like pringles! once you pop, you cant stop! hahaha...

happy days

i just completed my MSET course. if you guys need to know, MSET stands for maintenance servicing enhancement training a.ka two-weeks-of-eating-and-sleeping course. yup, so now i'm waiting for my exam which is in 6 months. if i pass, i'll be given an Automotive ITE certificate. so i'll be like a jc-cum-ite student. haha. so, come to think about it, being a driver is not that bad after all. i get free licence plus a new cert! in total, i can save up about 5000 bucks on those things! woots! everyday i discover a new thing about myself. and today, i realise that i'm leading a problem free life right now. i'm free! i have absolutely no doubts or queries or any nagging pain that keps me up all night. i have not had such a life in ages! in a way, i'm quite new to it all! but i'm learning to enjoy it. u guys should try it sometime! and like i've so articulately put it in my previous post, i thought i'm missing someone, but in actual fact, i was only holding on to the hope that that person might come back. but now that ive decided to live my life as if that person never existed,i feel rejuvenated! to that bitch, bear this in mind,' when you grow old and have a twin, don't come to me for safety pin'. i saw this picture on my dear cousin's blog. so i just had to take it. this my frenz, is my granddad(he looks so adorable playing with his camera phone!). the hitler of our times. he is one of the strictest person i know. who is so morally upright.but what makes him so special is the fact that, he manage to rear 8 fantastic children so love him so very much till today. the best part is, he makes all his 20 grandchildren adore him even more. tho at times he appears sadistic(haha!), he is the sweetest granddad i know. i remember vividly the days in Tekong, where he used to call me up almost everyday to check if i'm doing ok. that touched me so deeply. the fact that i have this man supporting me drives me forward. so, to Atuk, take care old man! all of us will be praying for you every single day. love ya!

you

why am i still stuck in a moment? why do i keep wanting something that i know so well that i cannot have? what is it about you that makes it so difficult to let you go? it was just a 2 week rendevous that took place almost a year ago. why do still hold on to those beautiful memories? youve caused me so much pain yet i keep crawling back to you. you've got me under your spell. im begging you! let me go! stop hurting me no more. i've suffered enough. secretly im hoping that you'll jus vanish from my mind. but my whole world revolves around you.why are you so cruel? what grave sin have i ever committed to deserve a punishment so severe. the airport used to mean so much to me. my safe haven. my secret retreat. but even that you stole from me. now, i cant go there not thinking of us. with every step i take in that beautiful place, a part of me dies. i know i can never turn back time. i know you dont care no more. but if you could only bring me some closure and say something. anything. could you at least release me from the wrath of your spell? you were rite. i should've never fallen in love with you. it would be so much easier to hate you. but i cant dammit!

schnappi

my baby schnappi got sterilised today! shocked when i was told by the vet that she was pregnant! who could've impregnated by baby!!!! anyway, she's recuperating now. its funny how i can love a person who hates me and yet cannot love a person who loves me. and lo and behold! the two are one in a complex way determined by time. those who understand will know. i'm so confused but not yet traumatised. i need to move forward! as such, i'm finding love in the only constant in my life. God.

mummy and daddy

heres a reminder to all of you out there. Love your mummy and daddy! "the man who wakes wakes up in the morning having previously performed all the duties laid upon him by God regarding his parents, he will find the two gates of Heaven open for him, he will find the two gates of Paradise open for him on the waking up in the morning; and in case there is only one parent, the person will find one door of Heaven open for him. But, on the other hand, if a man wakes up in the morning having previously disregarded any duties laid down upon him by God concerning his parents, then he will find the two gates of Hell open for him on waking up on the morning; and in case one of the parents is alive, then the man will find one gate of Hell open for him".

eliza

notice the glaring similarity??? thanks to bogeyman, i'm now a star! hahaha! oh my gosh! i did something really terrible yesterday. while i was walking along the mrt station, there was this woman who approached me asking for donations. as usual, i shun her away because i do not believe donationg money. i'd rather donate my time and attention to help these unfortunate ppl. but thats another story. so anyway, a few minutes later, another women approached me. so, even before she asked anything, i said ' no thank you', and walked away! moments later, i heard her ask behind my back, 'may i know the direction to the bus interchange?' i felt so terrible can. but she looked so much like a samaritan can!!! hahaha...to that woman, so sorry!!!! to my fellow peeps who are now amidst ur 'A'/'O' levels! wish you guys all the best ya...hang in there! it'll be over soon!

phantom!

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!aren't you guys just excited!!!! i am like so there can....

to that particular person, happy birthday!

angel

Thanks to a guardian angel sent by God to me recently, I finally realised how much I’ve hurt all those around me. My angel made me realise that the words I say and the actions that I take do make an impact on others and I should really think before I do anything. My angel too, made me realise that I do not know who I am as a person. I realise how insecure of myself I am that I need to tell myself that I’m happy in order to convince myself that I am happy. So now, I’m on a road of self discovery. This is for my angel… I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue and I stumbled out of bed and dragged my feet across the room Right outside my front door was a rose and a note that said ‘Somebody Loves You’ But out on the street it starts to pour and before I get soaking wet, A total stranger runs to give me the jacket off his back I turn around to thank him But he waves me with a smile I can hardly believe my eyes He puts on a halo and starts to fly Take a look at the ordinary Don’t need to look for paradise You could be next to An angel in disguise I met a good friend for lunch and we had a delicious mea But I fogot to bring my wallet I felt like an imbecile But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and Bought me a chicken sandwich To take home for tea But out on the street with nothing to eat A man and his shopping cart go Travelling to places Collecting social graces I give him my sandwich And we chatter for a while I see a rainbow wash over his eyes He gives me his halo and I start to fly I wake up this morning Feeling kind of new. It may be the end of something beautiful. But it’s the beginning of a new adventure.

snapshots

Was rummaging through my album and i found these....

the overgrown rugrats!

the crazy people i call frenz.we are like so hot can?

the geeks i call family...

the perfect person

After much contemplation, I’ve finally decided to blog. Thanks to this wonderful movie I watched today. I’ve finally decided to discuss about a few things that I thought was optimistic and insightful. It all started with this phrase that I heard in this particular movie. And this is how it goes,’ lies are like a cobweb'. Telling a lie is like spinning a cobweb. The more cobweb a spider spin, the harder it gets for its victims to escape. Just like spinning a cobweb, the more lies you tell, the more complicated it gets and soon, you’ll find yourself trapped in your own cobweb of lies. Which is why telling the truth is always the best. No matter how bad the truth may hurt, it won’t be as murderous as a lie. One other interesting point that this particular movie taught me is how to view the moon. Funny I never thought of this before. Take sometime to ponder about this. The moon symbolises something very important that we often fail to see. It tells us that even in the toughest of times, in the darkness of the night, there is always a chance for beauty to shine. When I heard that, I thought, I’d never look at the moon the same again. On last thing I learn which I thought is worth sharing is love. Love, as they say is a burning friendship. You’d find love in the best of friendships. And what is love without hurt? It’ll be like a day without night. An impossibility. So, to all my dearest friends out there, let me tell you that I love you guys to bits. You may not notice it but sometimes, your gentlest gestures means the world to me. Like giving me a call out of the blue. Or asking me out for dinner at the most random of moments. Or inviting me for your first concert. These are the things that you guys do that tell me how much you value our friendship and for that I’m forever grateful. Yes, we may have our disagreements but I realise that you may be the most ungrateful selfish bastard/bitch I’d ever known but I can never never hate you forever. I’d take sometime to forgive you. But eventually, I will. Friendship is complex and that is what makes it all the more beautiful. To all those who’ve I’ve hurt, I’m truly sorry. And to those who’ve hurt me, I’ve forgiven you. Let me tell you now that losing one friend is worst that having a million enemies. But to each is own. You chose to end something as delicate as an orchid on water. All I hope is that, you know what you’re doing. And to that someone, life may be difficult for us. The road may be bumpy. And we may never be together forever. But whatever happens to us in the future, you’d always have a place in my heart because you’ve taught me something very important. You’ve taught me to love myself. I guess I’d forever be on a journey in search for someone special. Someone whom I can bring out the best in and who can bring out the best in me. Impossible as it may seem, I believe that that someone is out there waiting for me.

bored

ok... the laziness of blogging has finally kicked in. hahaha. im jus a lazy fat pig. too tired to do anything. let alone blog. whuaahaha...shall do it tomorrow. but just a little update on the life of ilyas the driver. i've just been elected as the landrover i/c. which is actually not a big thing. knowing the fact that i'm surrounded by imbeciles, its no surprise that i actually got it. but now, i have tonnes and tonnes of work to do. i had to service the vehicles! oh my gosh! i had oil all over my delicate hands can. after running away from the evil wrath of andrew our mileage i/c, he finally caught me and made me take a stupid fam test for cargo trailer. yup. so guys, now i can drive a trailer! wow! so exciting!(yeah rite) today i had to orientate unimog too. i swear the world is out to kill me la. been helping kelvin with his essays and stuff. only to realise that i really wanna teach that for life man. english is like so fun! thanks bro for making me realise tt. been giving some taught to taking up mandarin. should i do it? anyways, to all my frenz/cousins who are taking their A's and O's, do take care u guys. dun fall sick now ya... jus do ur best. remember, God only helps those who help themselves! hang in there y'all! to those who tagged, thanks u guys. i had a good luff reading them. jus makes me wonder what crazy people my crazy blog is attracting.hahaha... this is quite random, but does anyone notice that abdullah tarmugi actually put on weight? haha...looks so fat in the papers today la. lose those pound bro!