mixed emotions

ok...i found the downfall of blogging. i just cant seem to write my true feelings and opinions that i have at that very moment in time. and by the time i reproduce it, it sounds dumb. but oh wel...wateva. so this week began on friday. haha. supposed to have dinner with fuzion/su but due to certain expected unforseen circumstances, it never happened. and so in the end, the fuzion boys aka the trio went out. had pizza hut and caught World Trade Centre. which was a complete turn off. half of the entire show was focused on two guys trapped under the rumble. all the while the words that kept playing in my head was ,'come on! die already!' a totaly pointless show. the conversations they had had no direction! totally no storyline. no trauma. and the stupidest part was when an image of jesus popped up out of nowhere offering evian! hahahahaha. hilarious! so anyway, we had a real good heart to heart talk. i miss those moments! i've decided to leave the intimate details out of this blog to kept the suspense. haha. but in conclusion, ive decided to give up on certain people who thinks that the whole world revolves around his/herself. so, to that person, don't bother making appointments with me. if u're dying to meet up, plan a year in advance yar. ill try to find a space to slot u in my oh-so-busy schedule. btu if i cant find a slot, try again the year after ya? afterwards, matin and i spent a good 2 hour or so pouring our hearts out and we've concluded that some pple are jus not like what they are. when u think you know a person well enough something crops up and it makes u wonder do i really know this person? may be not. but who cares. i've given up defending. so, sorry pal, u're on your own now. like i always say,'when u grow old and have a twin, don't come to me for safety pin.' all i can say is,'i told you so.' so on saturday i went out with the monkeys! haha...went to acjc with the gibbon and surprised the hell out of her wnet i brought in the australian chimp! haha...you should hear the way she shouted! i swore the entire lt4 started to rumble!haahaha. it wa so sweet la! plus, the dance performance was so hot! i swear i was sweating! hee hee...if u get wat i mean. and i talked to my dearest ms chia! she's so sweet! love you hun! we then went to coffee club holland and laughed some more at chimp's fake lashes and uneven fake tan! haha. but we still love u darl! then headed to jelita to visit chimp's parent's shop and spent time chattin at o'briens and believe it or not, we spend a good two hours at times! haha. it was hilarious. laughed like 3 idiots and took kerazee photos! haha...hey chimp! even with the extra 7kg, you still look like a hot mama! haha... gibbon and i den left to meet up with gorilla at jp. ate again!!! my gosh! my life revolves around food! so anyway. we talked about crappy shit as always! but it turned out to be a perfect day for me. haha. to me, this is what friendship is all about. making sacrifices to spend time with the pple that matters. to gibbon, study hard for ur A's ok! to gorilla, thanks for spending time with us despite ur exams being round the corner! good luck to the both of u! i'll be praying for u! and to my dear chimp, come back again soon yar. anyway, aust is not tt far! jus a dial away. take care hun! i'm quite surprised tt i still have the energy type all this out especially whe n i jus found out that all my dreams are shattered. to the frenz tt understand wat i mean, thanks for pretending not to know. if u guys told me earlier, i wouldnt know how i'd handle it! but to that person, all the best to u. u've jus given up on the best thing that could have ever happen in ur life. but nonetheless, i'll still pray for ur happiness. i jus hope u know wat u're doing this time!